Working in the CVICU brought many first in my nursing career: the first time I did compressions, the first time I took care of a patient on ECMO, the first time I saw a patient come back from the operating room with an open chest, and the first time I ever withdrew care on my patient. In adult nursing, I helped my coworkers with post mortem care for their patients, but I never had my own patient pass away until Baby K. This experience profoundly impacted my nursing path: I had to learn how to grieve as well as process…